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Sunday, June 29, 2014

Feeling of this Ramadhan

Bismillaah...


Alhamdulillaah, i am so happy. Today is the first day of Ramadhan. Well, truth is some people in my country already started fasting yesterday, but the Government decided through an isbat that Ramadhan started today instead of yesterday, so i followed what our Imam (in this case The Religious Affairs Ministry) said.

It is the first time in my life ever to spend the first days of Ramadhan not at home due to my college’s exam schedule. It made me a little sad, because really, i want to spend first sahoors and iftars with my parents. It saddens me even more to think about my parents’ feeling though they said they understood my situation.

I notice that, since i came to college, at the every start of Ramadhan i had so many targets and expectations but that very Ramadhan ended up being a not-really-good (sometimes i would say bad) Ramadhan. Reading many articles about Ramadhan, and knowing better about my religion and my priorities this year, i commited to make this Ramadhan the best ever.

The thing is..

On July 10th (Ramadhan 12th), i will have to join Student Community Service (KKN) as part of our college program. Honestly it scares me a lot, because i’ll be busied with the KKN programs (we’ll have to carry out so many programs in a certain village...you know, our duties to the country and such), and work as team with boys. Not just that, we will stay at the Hamlet Chief’s place (the girls and the boys will live together in the same roof!). For two months! Please sisters, pray for me! :'(

Then again i remember that this is part of Allah’s decree, and as long as i stay firm with my principles and make lots of du’as, everything will be just fine insha Allah.

Recently i came across an article about Ramadhan, it reminded me that a muslimah should not regret and be sad of the coming of menstrual period during Ramadhan, because it’s part of Allah’s decree. And there are many other type of good deeds that we can do even during our period. I think this KKN is like that too, maybe i won’t have as many time to read Qur’an and attend lectures as when i am free, but there will be other form of deeds i can do there, insha Allah.

I pray to Allah to keep me steadfast in whatever condition i will be facing. Aamiin.

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